It felt like .. I don't really know. It's like an awakening.
First there was the struggle, I really tried my best at digital coloring and stuff, working so hard to improve. But it never felt quite.. RIGHT. I was never happy about it. There's not one single digital piece I am happy about.
But tonight. Tonight.
I was bored, I had my laptop on my desk and the TV on. And I started doodling, experimenting. I told myself "why don't try and give it a shading? but make it like.. GOOD. Like
SerenaVerdeArt would. Like
Claparo-Sans would. I put my best effort and patience to it. I think I've been drawing with loving care and dedication for 4hrs? or so?
I felt like every single fibre of me was remembering notions of anatomy and shading and 3d lightening and.. for the very first time, i was actually USING IT.
it turned out beautiful.
I'm happy and proud.
I was so happy I was drawing even if I was tired to the very edge of breaking up into pieces, and I was scared that if I stopped, tomorrow it would'n feel the same magic. So I pushed myself harder.
I'm so proud.
Tomorrow, I'll show you.
it's freaky, y'know? ò__ò